(Today’s post is in letter form)
In light of current circumstances and my own want and need to know where I’m supposed to be, I’m asking for You to please show me where me and my family are supposed to be.
Maybe it’s because I’m looking for a huge, neon light sign with a giant arrow that shows says, “GO HERE!”
The reality (not problem) is that You don’t work like that. *Sigh* And that’s what I’m having trouble wrapping my brain around.
You’re so awesome and mighty and powerful and more than I could ask for but it’s frustrating to ask something of You because I HAVE TO WAIT AND LISTEN! (Can You sense/understand my frustration???) I know You always give the answer just when it needs to be given, but, I hate waiting! And listening??? Really??? You speak so softly most of the time I don’t hear You or I miss what You’re saying. How come You can’t just do a loud bullhorn moment?
I’m sorry, God. I know I shouldn’t be yelling or venting at You. Psh. This isn’t even easy to vent about to You because it is all about You and where we’re supposed to be and what we’re supposed to be doing. Geez Louise!
I’m sorry, God, for my little outburst/hissy fit/tantrum. You don’t deserve that and I do apologize for it.
If the problem is waiting, please, please, please help me to be patient. If the problem is hearing/listening, please open my ears to only Your voice and tune out the rest of the world. If the problem is both… Well, I’ll leave it to You to fix both issues.
Show us where we’re supposed to go, give us peace with Your decision, help us to see the right in it. Nothing in our lives is without You. You’ve been our Rock, our Peace, our Comfort. You’ve proven Yourself time and again. You’ve never let us down.
I’m trusting You won’t. I have faith You’ll see us through. I believe in Your will for us.
Please, God. Just… Just show us.
Move us where You will.